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ive no really find anything to make me feel really happy.
All those things that made me laugh, didnt last forever.
Those thoughts made me think.
ive no really a place to called "home".
i dont deserve more than i get.
i dont feel myself satified, i think i should be proud for all those things i've done, but i dont feel anything more than unsatisfaction.
i promised myself a lot of things, i know i can, but sometimes those things around my head messing with me.
i know i should say everything, i should take the chance while i can.
i know i've spent my whole life alone, with no friends at all.
i wonder why, why should i be like this?
ive not feel love.
i want something to believe in.
i want something to trust.
im a accuser, all that blame is for myself.
it seems easy but isnt.
i wonder why.
All the thing i've done, should made me feel important?. but i dont feel.
i dont feel anything. all those things that i should be proud of, mean nothing.
i cannot lie.
i cannot lie that ive been thinking about passing out.
but why?
why should i feel this?.
Everyday is like other day, obviously.
but, always i tend to screw up.
I used to think about every single thing.
but now it seems like i dont have thoughts anymore.
im just walking through this universe alone.
i cannot feel any pain anymore.
even when it feels like am gonna cry, even when it feels so bad, even when it hurst like hell.
i dont feel anything.
those scars that i got, they are there forever.
why do i like my own blood?
iSNT funny, to see myself doing sorta kinda things that will make u cry.
im not tryingto be sad. im not trying to be depressed.
but i am.
ive spent my whole life in this town. in the same building for ages, no one eally know me. the worst part is i dont like and i dont dislike anything. i just dont care. i can trew away everything.
i know it doesnt make sense, but i should stay lying on the ground crying for help, even when i do need to, even when i dont need to.
i should take a breath once again, i think im losing my time, but i think ive all the time, even when i dont.
